CAPE CANAVERAL, Fla. – He was just 8 when NASA lost the space shuttle Columbia and he lost his astronaut mom.
Now, 10 years later, Iain Clark is a young man on the cusp of college with a masters rating in scuba diving and three parachute jumps in his new log book.
His mother, Dr. Laurel Clark, loved scuba and skydiving. So did her flight surgeon husband and Iains dad, Dr. Jonathan Clark, who since the Feb. 1, 2003, accident, has been a crusader for keeping space crews safe.
Altogether, 12 children lost a parent aboard Columbia. The youngest is now 15, the oldest 32. One became a fighter pilot in Israel, just like his father, and also died tragically in a crash. The oldest son of the pilot of Columbia is now a Marine captain with three young children of his own. The commanders daughter is a seminary student.
Its tough losing a mom, thats for sure. I think Iain was the most affected, said Clark, a neurologist. My goal was to keep him alive. That was the plan. It was kind of dicey for a while. There was a lot of darkness – for him and me.
Clarks wife and six other astronauts – Commander Rick Husband, co-pilot William McCool, Kalpana Chawla, Michael Anderson, Dr. David Brown and Israeli Ilan Ramon – were killed in the final minutes of their 16-day scientific research mission aboard Columbia.
The space shuttle, with a wing damaged during launch, ripped apart in the Texas skies while headed for a landing at Kennedy Space Center.
NASA will remember the Columbia dead at a public memorial service at Kennedy on Friday morning.
Clark, now 59 and long gone from NASA, said he turned to alcohol in the aftermath of Columbia. If it wasnt for his son, he doubts he would have gotten through it.
Hes the greatest kid ever, Clark said in a phone interview from Houston. He cares about people. Hes kind of starting to get his confidence, but hes not at all cocky.
Iain is set to graduate this spring from a boarding school in Arizona; he wants to study marine biology at a university in Florida.
His life is about as idyllic as you could imagine, considering all ... hes been through, said Clark, who is still protective of Iains privacy. He would not disclose where Iain attends school, but he did provide a few snapshots.
Mother and son were extremely close.
After the accident, Iain insisted to his father, I want to invent a time machine, If he could go back in time, the child reasoned, he could warn his mother about the fate awaiting her.
He asked me why she didnt bail out, that kind of stuff, because he knew she had been a parachutist, Clark recalled.
Father and son were among the astronauts families waiting at the Kennedy runway for Columbia that Saturday morning. Once it was clear there had been trouble, the families were hustled to crew quarters, where they got the grim news.
Rona Ramons sharpest memory about that fateful Feb. 1 is how the joy and the longing to see her husband return from space turned so quickly into anguish. I just looked up at the sky and said, God, bring him back to me.
Her husband, already a heroic military pilot, became Israels first spaceman on the flight.
Clark hastily came up with a plan: Disappear with his son as soon as they got back home to Houston. Grab the dog, the car and as much money as possible. Then, drop off the grid.
But that didnt happen. A few years went by before father and son finally made their escape. Clark bought a house in Arizona, keeping a small apartment in Houston as he went from working for NASA at Johnson Space Center to a teaching job at Baylor College of Medicine and an advisers position at the National Space Biomedical Research Institute.
Clark wont divulge his exact whereabouts, even now. He moves every few years. He has a girlfriend but doesnt see himself remarrying.
I dont ever want to go through losing a wife again, he explained.
Clark remains bitter over the really bad people who came after him in Houston for money and favors, spurred by NASAs $27 million settlement in 2007 with the Columbia families.
There was a lot of grief. There was a lot of sorrow. There was a lot of destructive behavior. There were a lot of people taking advantage of you, he said.
But Clark holds no grudges against NASA, neither the agency as a whole nor the managers who, during the flight, dismissed concerns from low-level employees about the severity of damage to Columbias left wing.
It was gouged by a piece of insulating foam that peeled off the fuel tank at liftoff.
The only way out of the Columbia darkness, for Clark, has been to move forward. It doesnt mean I dont miss Laurel or have remorse about what happened, he said. But you cannot be living in this kind of grief-stricken mode. ... Laurel would kick my ass if that happened to me.
The shuttle commanders widow, Evelyn Husband Thompson, finally feels free to start giving back, now that her youngest, Matthew, is 17. She wanted to focus first on her two children and then on her marriage five years ago to Bill Thompson, a widower she met through church. Bill provided the crucial male role model that Matthew so desperately needed following the accident, she said.
Now, his mother said, he enjoys his private life.
It was tough. Overnight, my children were thrust into this international stage, Thompson said. Having the last name Husband drew grief-stricken stares for the longest time in Houston, home to Johnson Space Center. With the mercy of time, people really dont recognize it as much as they once did, she said.
Reminders of Columbias dead are everywhere – including up in the sky.
Asteroids, lunar craters, Martian hills, schools, parks, streets and even an airport (Rick Husband Amarillo International Airport) bear the Columbia astronauts names.
Two years ago, a museum opened in Hemphill, Texas, where much of the Columbia wreckage rained down, dedicated to remembering Columbia.
About 84,000 pounds of that wreckage – representing 40 percent of NASAs oldest space shuttle – are stored at Kennedy and lent for engineering research.
The tragedy has made Clark and his son more spiritual.
Hes a really good kid, and I wonder – you always wonder – would he have been this way if he hadnt lost somebody so dear in his life.
Maybe this was Laurels gift to him.